Death is a pretty scary thing hey? Its cold and dark when it happens. But no one wants it to be like that. People want to celebrate the life that the person had lived. Two deaths that I know of happened over night and it always reminds me of past people that have died that are close to me. I still haven't gotten over it. I don't think I will for a while.. I miss you everyday. It also makes me think, when will my time be up and when will the ones closet to me have to leave? I'm too scared, I can't lose anyone.. What will happen after? Where do you go? Who's there? Do people really watch over us? If so, where are they? I have so many questions but I don't know if i want them answered.
Being positive, looking forward - not back and smiling.. That's what I'm doing at the moment.. Well trying.
But I am happy and I don't want anything bringing me down. I would appreciate it if people would talk to others. But I'm not going to force anyone to do anything they don't want to. Just think about it please.. I'm also over fake friendships. But I'm trying to be positive!
Had a lovely a lovely talk with Mum in the car ride home today. We both believe, that if you fight with someone, the relationship needs re-thinking. Why would you want someone in your life that is bringing you down? No one needs that. You should want people in your life who help you shine and be the best you can. You should want people who bring out the best in you, not the worst. You should want people who make you happy and make you feel like every day is going to be better than the one before. I want people in my life like this.. I HAVE people in my life like this and I don't plan on letting go of them.
Tomorrow, I plan on taking a lot of fun photo's at Wonga Wetlands with one Miss Melinda. :) <-- she makes me like this.
Work again with Alice tomorrow. Brilliant.
Currently, listening to Dashboard Confessional and I can smell the candle that Kate gave me :) it's beautiful.
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