# 32

Had another good day at school. I'm being positive about it this week. Funniest thing all day, Mr Teacher: "Molly your motivation for those handcuffs is.. interesting" creepy eyebrows. HAHAHAHAHAHAH :) laughed till i teared up a little. And another teacher explained how she likes swearing and she uses swear words a lot but she didn't want to lecture us on it. Amusing.

I currently feel meh, eh, blah, blugh. I don't know how to describe it but I think I am annoyed but I don't know with what. I really would have liked it if I got to talk to you a bit more today..

Gaymar blue retreat tomorrow, will be enjoyable. I wish Luc Williams was still in the country. I miss him so much :(

Very unorganised and unmotivated lately. This is an issue.

# 31 - laughter is the best medicine.

Today was a really good day. Like really good. Laughed and smiled a lot. Was very productive in all my classes. Had Remar. Then spent my evening with James.

Hopefully everyone was as happy as I was today. Lunch time was the best I must say. Having a little picnic :) It was also highly amusing when we were talking about Kate's top secret note, then Lachie came around the corner! Like wow. Tenneale is a genius. Truely and I love her.

I miss Nicole Peacock and Dione Whitehead a lot.

I would like to say thank you to James for helping me with all the hard words within my homework and for not agreeing with me when I call myself dumb even though we both know quite well that I am. You make me smile like the Cheshire Cat. So yeah, thanks dude :P

'Sleep tight, ya morons.'

# 30

What an uneventful day. The most controversial thing that happened all day, was that my phone was confiscated in period four. I felt naked all afternoon without it..

Don't you hate it when you have prior commitments then something so much better comes up? Because at the moment, I'm absolutely hating it. With a passion.

Currently in love with Angus & Julia Stone and Lady of the Sunshine. I know they are basically the same, but I just love each single song of the new albums.

It's beginning to feel like winter. I've been looking forward to this for so long and now that it's here, I'm not too sure if I like it. I mean, don't get me wrong, I LOVE being warm in my bed, wearing trackies and hoodies, drinking hot chocolate to warm me from the insides, sitting in front of a heater, extremely hot showers and going to the snow BUT it's all come to quickly. I feel like I've missed out on autumn and that's my favourite season. It's beginning to get to me. I'm in a 'I don't care about anything mood' and I think it's only because I'm tired and I don't like it. I want to care. But I lack the motivation. Someone in class today described depression as 'having a lack of motivation', so does that mean I'm depressed? Does that mean majority of people are depressed because I feel that most people will have a time in their life where they can't be motivated to do something.

Please don't forget me.. I want to be remember. I want to make a change but I need to know what that change will be. I want to make an impact. I want to be the impact. I refuse to be quiet and let people walk all over me. I refuse to be scared. I refuse to be sad. I refuse to conform.

Everything will slowly come together. Everything will fall into place.

# 26, 27, 28, 29

Had an amazing weekend.

Friday, my sister Jade had her formal graduation from Charles Sturt University. I'm very proud of what she has achieved and I look up to her in so many ways. Congratulations Jadey for sticking it out. You deserve nothing but the best.

Had a lovely lunch at Paddys, then went to work. After work, Jade had a little celebration for graduating, which James and Alice came with me. It didn't end so well. A note to all people - stop butting in, I will sort everything out in time. Came home and bummed with James, Alice and Jonathan.

Saturday, headed off to Melbourne. We had a little hiccup at Wallan when the car got a flat battery but it was all ok! Thank you RACV man.. Arrived at the apartment and bailed to go shopping :) We headed up South Bank and over to Fed Square where I wanted to go to this thingy at ACMI. I don't even know what it's called but its AWESOME! I'll put links on facebook, just so you can enjoy them! After wondering around Swanston Street and Bourke street with a couple of purchases, including the coolest boots ever... We headed back to the apartment to get ready to go out. We went out to tea at some fancy French place. The boys went to Crown Casino and us girl, plus my Auntie Sandra and my cousin Taylor, went to Fame the musical... Which I must say was amazing! Yes, Timomatic is divine! Had a lot of fun.

Sunday. Quickly went to Dangerfield so Jonathan could get this lovely jacket with the money he had one the night before at Crown. Good purchase. Then, we walked to the FOOTY FOOTY FOOTY. 90 000 screaming fans, beer being spilt everywhere, sunshine, wind then rain! What more could we want? Oh but to top it off, the Bombers lost! By A LOT and I was a Bombers fan for a day! I was ashamed by my team. Oh well, I like the Saints! But it was still a lot of fun. We went back to the apartment and had a rest for about 2 hours. Then Alice, Jonathan and I went out for tea, to the Automatic Cafe at Crown. It was lovely, but Alice and I were basically forced to eat! I did not like this. The food was good though. We went to the Intencity place there and had a lot of fun. Rohan, ah Rohan. What a champion. First, he gave us extra credit on out Galactic Card and second he gave us two prizes for the price of one. Alice, I would like mine back ;) haha. Our goal of making a new friend was surely met.

Today, Jonathan caught the train back early because he had work. But the rest of us, went to the new DFO. Oh it was brilliant. I must say, Alice and I are the ultimate bargain shoppers. Job well done. The we left for home, with a quick visit to my Old Pop in Benella. Arrived home about 5.30pm. Then went on a quick drive to pick up Harvey dog :)

I will add photo's when Alice gives them to me :)

I am currently listening to Pump It Vol. 1. It's a lot of fun! It's cold, like really cold. I am looking forward to going to my own bed and being super warm.

School tomorrow, not looking forward to it. I haven't been in basically a week... Strange..

Goodnight beautiful people...

# 24 & 25

Yesterday was very very boring. Biology trip to Wonga Wetlands. How original. I swear I've been there at least 10 times with primary and high school. The only fun part was taking photo's with Mim and Taylor.

Work with Alice was good, then netball. I don't know why I bother. I'm shit because I'm so used to basketball. I want to play basketball again! I miss it so so so so so so much!

Sleepover at Alice's.. She likes eggs you see, as you can have them many ways and never get bored!

Today was a very relaxing day, didn't get out of bed until 11 i think. We had to get ready and go to school for Alice's parent-teacher interviews and whilst I was sitting there, minding my own business and all... MY FLIP FLOP BROKE! It was the worst thing that had ever ever happened to me. I loved those flip flops so so much. But I replaced them with cheap Cotton On ones :)

Guitar was good today. I am currently learing a Bob Dylan song. He has a interesting life story. He's around 70 and still kicking. Wow.

Currently making Lady of the Sunshine, Paul Dempsey and the new Angus and Julia Stone album magically appear on my laptop.. So smart. Bright Eyes is a good band.

James always knows what to say to make an upsetting situation better. He seems to brighten my day... a little... :)

Cannot wait for the weekend.. Trust me.. Its going to be amazing and extremely fun. Probably should watch out Melbourne! 2 sleeps!

Smile please, it WILL make someones day.

# 23

Today was successful in English, although i didn't want to be there. But I didn't get kicked out, yelled at or anything confiscated so that's a bonus. Work with Alice after school was fun. Spent the evening at Jade, Rohan and Connor's house.

Death is a pretty scary thing hey? Its cold and dark when it happens. But no one wants it to be like that. People want to celebrate the life that the person had lived. Two deaths that I know of happened over night and it always reminds me of past people that have died that are close to me. I still haven't gotten over it. I don't think I will for a while.. I miss you everyday. It also makes me think, when will my time be up and when will the ones closet to me have to leave? I'm too scared, I can't lose anyone.. What will happen after? Where do you go? Who's there? Do people really watch over us? If so, where are they? I have so many questions but I don't know if i want them answered.

Being positive, looking forward - not back and smiling.. That's what I'm doing at the moment.. Well trying.

But I am happy and I don't want anything bringing me down. I would appreciate it if people would talk to others. But I'm not going to force anyone to do anything they don't want to. Just think about it please.. I'm also over fake friendships. But I'm trying to be positive!

Had a lovely a lovely talk with Mum in the car ride home today. We both believe, that if you fight with someone, the relationship needs re-thinking. Why would you want someone in your life that is bringing you down? No one needs that. You should want people in your life who help you shine and be the best you can. You should want people who bring out the best in you, not the worst. You should want people who make you happy and make you feel like every day is going to be better than the one before. I want people in my life like this.. I HAVE people in my life like this and I don't plan on letting go of them.

Tomorrow, I plan on taking a lot of fun photo's at Wonga Wetlands with one Miss Melinda. :) <-- she makes me like this.

Work again with Alice tomorrow. Brilliant.

Currently, listening to Dashboard Confessional and I can smell the candle that Kate gave me :) it's beautiful.

Smile

# 22 - I love my mum!

Midnight and I'm doing homework. But its worth it. Everything is worth it.

School was friendly today. I was positive and happy. Period 4 was my favourite.. Independent study I like to call it.
Had the most amazing selection of lunch box food today, thanks to my mother. OH how i love her, like you'll never believe. To the moon and back a million billion times... AND when I got home tonight, she had a present for me :)

Remar was cancelled after school today, so I went to recording instead. Very entertaining. Wilbus is awesome apparently ? :S haha. Had tea at James' house and it was yum! Played the Wii machine and I dominated in Wii bowling. Yes, yes i did. Watched School of Rock, which I feel is the most quotable movie of all time.
James' is a very safe driver, haha giving way at round about and all...

Currently listening to Westlife. What ever happened to them?
Oh well, I will always have their music to enjoy.


Believe!

#21

You make me happy, yeah you make me glad, just in knowing that the next day's even better than the last.
And I know i said I'm sorry, and I know you think I'm wrong, but baby please don't worry this is why i wrote this song.
And you make me smile, and you make me laugh, yeah this may take a while but I want you and I to last.
And i know you said you like me, well i really like you too, so i hope this makes you happy, cause i wrote this just for you...

So happy!

Today was extremely relaxing after a crazy fun day yesterday. Made "cakes of the pan kind" with chocolate chips in and proved Mum wrong when she said the shop won't sell maple syrup! But they did!

Watched James play soccer and was slowly slowly learning the rules. But the aim of the game is to get the ball in the rectangle thing :) haha.

Had a relaxing evening with Mum and we watched 'Honey, I shrank the kids' Ah its a classic!

Currently sitting in my room listening to music and avoiding reading my book for English...

I need money! Although, I got a fair bit for my birthday. I need more! Melbourne next weekend !!!!!!!!!!! Looking forward to it so so so much! Going to Fame the musical and the footy! Other fun things will happen, I'm sure.

Smile

#20 - 17! HAPPY BIRTHDAY

I'm now 17 and have been for one full day.
I'm old, i need a new walking frame, hearing aides and Kate said she's putting me in the old folks home soon.

I had a wonderful day of my birth.
Friday night, we stayed up till about 2. But in this time, we went to Macca's and NERIDA the macca's lady made my night. Along with our order of food, she gave me a balloon which she wrote Happy Birthday!!!! on. What a lovely lady.

Woke up with James and Alice and yelled "It's my birthday!!!!" SO SO SO happy.
Got some presents :) i got some earrings, a pandora charm, tickets to go see fame and money.
Had breakfast and James had to go to work hahaha.
Alice and I went into town and I got my double's pierced. Didn't even cry :)
Then we wandered off to plaza and got a boost juice. Devine. And new shoes! AND Jonathan picked me out the coolest singlet ever from Cotton On.

We went on a mini road trip to Wahgunya to watch Alice play netball and she played really well but the person on her was a slut. Dislike.
I got amazing flowers of Alice.
We came home and speadily got ready to go out to tea at La Pochetta. James drove us over and I had a lovely night spent with lovely people. Thankyou :)

Came home and had a spa party with a population of 3! Haha was lots of fun

I had an amazing day and want to thank everyone who helped it be amazing. And thankyou to everyone wishing me happy birthday.

This morning we woke up to the strangest music at a ridiculous time. Thanks to Jason :
So so so cozy in bed with Alice and Jonathan. Haha

Unfortunately, I didn't take any photo's but I will always have memories :)

Seeya pretties

# 19

Very much over school at the moment..

Remar social nights are always entertaing. Homemade pizza's, cake, chocolate, chips and lollies for everyone! We always seem to share things that don't need to be shared but are always funny to hear. I love spending time with a different group of people.. "I wish that all the ladies..." :)

Sleepover with my favourites tonight!

One sleep babies. Don't forget

Night xo

#18 - well fuck you, fuck you very much

A lot of people just seem to be pissing me off at the moment.
Try and not be the next person. You might make my day..

English - you ruin my life. Mostly the teacher but that can be changed and will be.
Birthday dinner - fuck off. Work yourself out.
2 sleeps...! I just want everything to work out.

I'm sick of you. I can't deal with you. Go away. Please. If your not happy for me then leave me alone. I don't need you bringing me down. I thought we could have worked something out but obvouisly not. I'm happy so deal with it. Every time things in my life seem to going ok, you just have to come along and mess it up don't you? Please just go away.

Just breathe.

#17 - outdoor education

Makes me feel like this !@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^.)(*&^%$#

Tenneale makes me feel like this :D

Yesterday was a pretty bludgy day at school, went pretty quick though.

Alice always makes me laugh when she talks about how

people are shit at life.

But the truth is, some people really are.

We don't care what we do, so you shouldn't either. It's none of your business.

Had dinner with Mum, Jason, Jade, Connor and James last night. It was lovely.

Six of the best;

- I saw

- I ate

- I heard

- I did for me

- I did for someone

- Someone did for me

This is what we do at our family meals. I love it.

Dancing and guitar after school will be wonderful. Most likely going and listening to some acoustic sounds too :)

Have a beautiful rest of your day

#16 i miss you

Yep, yep, yes I do.. It's horrible..

First day back at school and all the teachers expect us to be back in school mode just like that? Ha, well they are so so wrong. I'm going to be in holiday mood until next week! Best thing about being at school? No hats!

Work with Alice after school was fun :)
She's the best!

Homework has drained me, so I'm going to bed right .......................... now.

Sorry for the shortness.. Was bit of an uneventful day


Goodnight pretties.

#12, 13, 14, 15 - school tomorrow.

First time basically in two weeks that I'm alone and I don't like it. See you soon

Beau's left and I most likely won't be able to see him for over a year. Depressing isn't it? Hmmm.

Thursday was Renee's, sooooo much fun!

- dancing

- dress ups

- tackling and getting tackled

- trampoline

- fighting with Alice hahah

- James

- all my friendlys

- Chicken Run

- zippy dress

What more could I want? Haha lots of fun!

Friday, went to recording with James. I like watching Adam tapping his feet. :) so i don't get bored. Abby is my new best friend.

Went to work then to Retro to watch Wilbus and Emma.

Then went to Wonderland hahah. Declan loves Alice!

Saturday, went to recording with James again.

Went to work, then back to the studio. Then to Alice's and bummed for a bit.

Had Maddi's sweet 16 :) lots of fun. Should really learn to not take my phone out....

Yesterday was spent doing nothing. Went grocery shopping with Beau and Alice. This is when Beau left to go to back to Darwin, then later on in the year he will go to the "A" word :(

We cooked everyone an amazing family dinner.

People attended;

- Alice

- Captain Dad (Mick)

- Mumma (Janine)

- Maggwa

- James

- Wilbus

- Jonathan
- & myself

Wilbus found his calling of grating cheese.. A punishment he will enjoy.

Today was spent bumming and finishing homework that is still not finished at this point in time.

Mum just made the best dinner ever! Love home-made pizzas!

Beee Happy.x

#11

Yesterday.

Slept in :)

Went to Alice's and watched her struggle to watch Paranormal Activity with Jonathan. Hilarious.

Went to work, and its always fun with Alice..

HAHAHA!

Bummed with Melissa after work then got ready for Sleaze's. Was a fun night. Photo's will be on the book of face..

Renee's tonight :) will be fun!

Smile beautifuls, it might make someones day.

#10 - Holiday homework

What a boring day.

Was spent slowly doing holiday homework. Which are two words that should never be put in the same sentence but teachers like to enforce it anyway! Can you do my health homework? Pajamas we once again, my friend for the whole day.

Highlight of the day - a surprise visit from two of my favourite people, Alice and Jonathan.

New favourite sing - Whataya want from me, its decent.

My plan for my gap year it to work for the first half and then travel in the next half. I want to travel the world and experience everything new. I want a new way of life to live. Something different will fit beautifully. Although I want all the same people. I want to go everywhere in Asia, places in Europe, Brazil and anywhere else that will fit my plans and I can afford. I'm going to backpack, so when I buy things, I'll just ship them home. I want to help out. I want to have adventures. Just as long as mum lives up to her promise and comes over to 2 weeks to see me in Cambodia.

I've started planning what I want to do for my birthday, so keep the 17th free :)

I want everyone to come and everyone to have a good time. I want to be a princess.

WANT WANT WANT. Just thought I'd emphasise my wants.

People need to stop being cranky with anything, because it spoils other peoples days.

Be happy! There's no point being sad. Go with the flow and appreciate what you have cause there is always worse off people. Smile, it'll make someones day. Maybe even brighten it.

Tomorrow looks attractive, goodnight.

# 8 & 9

For Sunday and Monday :)

Easter! Woop. Although I didn't get any chocolate till I was out at the farm. James picked me up at about 3 or ish and we road tripped to my grandparents farm.

We ended up staying the night, which we were entertained by my drunken family and friends.

So embarrassing!

Left at about 10 the next morning and as soon as I got home, I had to leave again to go to Benella. I drove :) was highly successful amongst the Easter weekend traffic.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE Tauber family gatherings. Everyone is just fun. Including my favourite cousin Taylor

The day was spent playing singstar, eating food, chatting and mingling and was top off with an amazing Easter Egg hunt which I dominated at! Haha

Went out for tea with the bestie last night and we enjoyed Thai food.

Then watched Step Up. Classic.

What a wonderful two days

#7 kate's amazing

She really is and she doesn't even know it. She's going to change the world because she has a determined mind. I love her.

Beau's home, beau's home, beau's home beau's home!

Yes he is and I saw him today :)

He picked me up after my wonderful breakfast, cooked by Rohan, and we went and visited Tenneale at her shop. The surprise made her super happy because she was sad. She's a beautiful friend and I love having her around.

Then we went on a mini road trip to get Kate from Kancoona so she could have a well deserved sleepover with me tonight.

Then we went to Albury to visit James at work :)

I got my birthday present off Beau today which was a silver ring and a new pandora charm. Yeah I'm 17 in two weeks kids. Write it down, put it in your phone, set reminders because I'm 17 on the 17th.

Tenneale came for a quick visit to Albury, then we had a little adventure to good old Bunnings and got free pool safety posters! What a score.

Babysitting Connor James tonight as Jade and Rohan have gone out for a lovely romantic dinner ;)

Dinner, Bath, Pjs, Bottle, Bed for Connor.

Currently playing playing Guitar Hero with Miss Kate, but it's taking a million years to load. Maybe visited by Britt later :)

Rohan and Jade just got home.. Now she's researching dildo's and their origins. The most funniest things I've ever heard in my life! hahahah

Suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuper happy!

Love. xx

#6 wow wow wow!

Wow wow wow wow wow wow wow wow wow wow wow!

That's all I can pretty much say at the moment.. :)

Had an incredible day spent with lovely people.

As today is Good Friday and there is The Good Friday Appeal for the Royal Children's Hospital, the CFA were going door to door to collect money.

After this, Rohan decided to mow the laws which Connor was watching with much excitement through the window.

Then had a quick chill sesh with Tenneale..

Then one of my best friends Beau rang me and told me he was on his way home, after being um well maybe Darwin or some in South Australia. So I will get to see him tomorrow :) but he has to go back on the 11th..

Then headed over to Y-fest, which had some really good bands/singers.. Including Emma and Wilbus!

I had heaps of fun dancing around and being silly with Tenneale, James, Wilbus and Emma.

After Y-fest, James, Wilbus and myself had an intense game of singstar. I dominated.... Ha!

Drive home was fun. Including Maccas! A thought - goon and fruit fizz? Yeah, it could work!

I must say I am extremely happy at the moment and life is going beautifully.

Goodnight pretties.

# 4 & 5

Yesterday was successful.

Woke James O'neill up at 8.30am. He's old now :)



Had work. Was pretty cruisey.

Had dinner at Birra, met my adopted grandma. What a babe! Followed by watching people be drunk at the Toy Factory.

Goon is the devil, to Katelouise anyway..

Was a lovely day spent with friends celebrating James' old age.


Today was lovely. Spent with my pretty sister. Drove the excel and I must say it went down not too bad.
I'm living with my sister over Easter as my parents are going camping and I don't have the motivation at the moment.
Connor James is my wonderful nephew. Although he was a devil today when we picked him up from day care. But i do love him.


Connor, today..

Currently sitting on the couch listening to my sister and Roh Roh/Roh-Dawg/Roh-dizzle talk about explicit things. Super funny! :) Connor has swimming lessons soon, it's always fun watching.

The invention of mine and Connor's secret handshake..

I'm planning on having a massive sleep in tomorrow since I have got into the routine of staying up late and getting up early.. It's happening alot lately. Dislike.

Movies later :)
Y-fest tomorrow? Yeah!


Have an amazing night