mmm.

I can't trust anyone.
I feel so low at the moment and I don't know why.
I'm tired all the time.
Nothing is going right.

# 33 well fuck.

I can't even commit to writing a blog.
Oh well.
I've given up. As always.
I may re-commit one day but it's not looking up.






Sorry stalkers

# 32

Had another good day at school. I'm being positive about it this week. Funniest thing all day, Mr Teacher: "Molly your motivation for those handcuffs is.. interesting" creepy eyebrows. HAHAHAHAHAHAH :) laughed till i teared up a little. And another teacher explained how she likes swearing and she uses swear words a lot but she didn't want to lecture us on it. Amusing.

I currently feel meh, eh, blah, blugh. I don't know how to describe it but I think I am annoyed but I don't know with what. I really would have liked it if I got to talk to you a bit more today..

Gaymar blue retreat tomorrow, will be enjoyable. I wish Luc Williams was still in the country. I miss him so much :(

Very unorganised and unmotivated lately. This is an issue.

# 31 - laughter is the best medicine.

Today was a really good day. Like really good. Laughed and smiled a lot. Was very productive in all my classes. Had Remar. Then spent my evening with James.

Hopefully everyone was as happy as I was today. Lunch time was the best I must say. Having a little picnic :) It was also highly amusing when we were talking about Kate's top secret note, then Lachie came around the corner! Like wow. Tenneale is a genius. Truely and I love her.

I miss Nicole Peacock and Dione Whitehead a lot.

I would like to say thank you to James for helping me with all the hard words within my homework and for not agreeing with me when I call myself dumb even though we both know quite well that I am. You make me smile like the Cheshire Cat. So yeah, thanks dude :P

'Sleep tight, ya morons.'

# 30

What an uneventful day. The most controversial thing that happened all day, was that my phone was confiscated in period four. I felt naked all afternoon without it..

Don't you hate it when you have prior commitments then something so much better comes up? Because at the moment, I'm absolutely hating it. With a passion.

Currently in love with Angus & Julia Stone and Lady of the Sunshine. I know they are basically the same, but I just love each single song of the new albums.

It's beginning to feel like winter. I've been looking forward to this for so long and now that it's here, I'm not too sure if I like it. I mean, don't get me wrong, I LOVE being warm in my bed, wearing trackies and hoodies, drinking hot chocolate to warm me from the insides, sitting in front of a heater, extremely hot showers and going to the snow BUT it's all come to quickly. I feel like I've missed out on autumn and that's my favourite season. It's beginning to get to me. I'm in a 'I don't care about anything mood' and I think it's only because I'm tired and I don't like it. I want to care. But I lack the motivation. Someone in class today described depression as 'having a lack of motivation', so does that mean I'm depressed? Does that mean majority of people are depressed because I feel that most people will have a time in their life where they can't be motivated to do something.

Please don't forget me.. I want to be remember. I want to make a change but I need to know what that change will be. I want to make an impact. I want to be the impact. I refuse to be quiet and let people walk all over me. I refuse to be scared. I refuse to be sad. I refuse to conform.

Everything will slowly come together. Everything will fall into place.

# 26, 27, 28, 29

Had an amazing weekend.

Friday, my sister Jade had her formal graduation from Charles Sturt University. I'm very proud of what she has achieved and I look up to her in so many ways. Congratulations Jadey for sticking it out. You deserve nothing but the best.

Had a lovely lunch at Paddys, then went to work. After work, Jade had a little celebration for graduating, which James and Alice came with me. It didn't end so well. A note to all people - stop butting in, I will sort everything out in time. Came home and bummed with James, Alice and Jonathan.

Saturday, headed off to Melbourne. We had a little hiccup at Wallan when the car got a flat battery but it was all ok! Thank you RACV man.. Arrived at the apartment and bailed to go shopping :) We headed up South Bank and over to Fed Square where I wanted to go to this thingy at ACMI. I don't even know what it's called but its AWESOME! I'll put links on facebook, just so you can enjoy them! After wondering around Swanston Street and Bourke street with a couple of purchases, including the coolest boots ever... We headed back to the apartment to get ready to go out. We went out to tea at some fancy French place. The boys went to Crown Casino and us girl, plus my Auntie Sandra and my cousin Taylor, went to Fame the musical... Which I must say was amazing! Yes, Timomatic is divine! Had a lot of fun.

Sunday. Quickly went to Dangerfield so Jonathan could get this lovely jacket with the money he had one the night before at Crown. Good purchase. Then, we walked to the FOOTY FOOTY FOOTY. 90 000 screaming fans, beer being spilt everywhere, sunshine, wind then rain! What more could we want? Oh but to top it off, the Bombers lost! By A LOT and I was a Bombers fan for a day! I was ashamed by my team. Oh well, I like the Saints! But it was still a lot of fun. We went back to the apartment and had a rest for about 2 hours. Then Alice, Jonathan and I went out for tea, to the Automatic Cafe at Crown. It was lovely, but Alice and I were basically forced to eat! I did not like this. The food was good though. We went to the Intencity place there and had a lot of fun. Rohan, ah Rohan. What a champion. First, he gave us extra credit on out Galactic Card and second he gave us two prizes for the price of one. Alice, I would like mine back ;) haha. Our goal of making a new friend was surely met.

Today, Jonathan caught the train back early because he had work. But the rest of us, went to the new DFO. Oh it was brilliant. I must say, Alice and I are the ultimate bargain shoppers. Job well done. The we left for home, with a quick visit to my Old Pop in Benella. Arrived home about 5.30pm. Then went on a quick drive to pick up Harvey dog :)

I will add photo's when Alice gives them to me :)

I am currently listening to Pump It Vol. 1. It's a lot of fun! It's cold, like really cold. I am looking forward to going to my own bed and being super warm.

School tomorrow, not looking forward to it. I haven't been in basically a week... Strange..

Goodnight beautiful people...

# 24 & 25

Yesterday was very very boring. Biology trip to Wonga Wetlands. How original. I swear I've been there at least 10 times with primary and high school. The only fun part was taking photo's with Mim and Taylor.

Work with Alice was good, then netball. I don't know why I bother. I'm shit because I'm so used to basketball. I want to play basketball again! I miss it so so so so so so much!

Sleepover at Alice's.. She likes eggs you see, as you can have them many ways and never get bored!

Today was a very relaxing day, didn't get out of bed until 11 i think. We had to get ready and go to school for Alice's parent-teacher interviews and whilst I was sitting there, minding my own business and all... MY FLIP FLOP BROKE! It was the worst thing that had ever ever happened to me. I loved those flip flops so so much. But I replaced them with cheap Cotton On ones :)

Guitar was good today. I am currently learing a Bob Dylan song. He has a interesting life story. He's around 70 and still kicking. Wow.

Currently making Lady of the Sunshine, Paul Dempsey and the new Angus and Julia Stone album magically appear on my laptop.. So smart. Bright Eyes is a good band.

James always knows what to say to make an upsetting situation better. He seems to brighten my day... a little... :)

Cannot wait for the weekend.. Trust me.. Its going to be amazing and extremely fun. Probably should watch out Melbourne! 2 sleeps!

Smile please, it WILL make someones day.